Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Sand, Song and Sentosa
Grrrrt...grrrt... my unswerving cell phone vibrated in my Hawaiian Bermuda pocket.I hastily dipped my left hand into my pocket to retrieve the trembling cell. My jet black phone was speckled with what seemed to be finely shattered glass; my phone screen had been crushed.
Well at least that was what I thought, before substantiating the substance to be fine white beach sand. The last time I wore those Bermudas was when i went to Sentosa in Singapore, and the sand from the beach was apparently not washed off completely from the deep nooks of my pocket.
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I had the wind blow through my hair and rain drops hitting on my face like bullets...
Up and down the hills of Sentosa we explored…
Pushing bicycles up steep slopes sporadically…
Sitting by the asphalt road waving at passing cars and sharing silly jokes…
Stopping at vacant bus stop bantering with utter asinine…
Stuffing of bags in infinitesimal storage lockers…
Walking on sandy beaches barefooted…
Splattering sea water on faces of others…
Singing of songs whilst submerged in water and walking in the rain…
Eating ice-creams and hot chocolate muffin in the cool rainy day…
That speckle of sand on my palm instantaneously drifted my mind miles and weeks away.
The time and moment I longed for and miss most…
To Kannan, Yoges and Theba
and the time we had surfing Sentosa.
~* Missed Much *~
The text I received from my vibrating phone just happened to invoke my longing sentiment…
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Revelations at Dawn
There I lay, wide awake... at half past 5 just before the crack of dawn. Silence pierced my ears with just the occasional chirrup of unknown insects resonating through the woods behind my house; the funny sound of the likeness of an un-oiled tweezers pricked the drum of my ears. The entire room being swallowed by darkness to every nook and niche was creepy. I knew my eyes were open, just in case, I stretched out my hands to see if they really were; my eyes failed to search, as the result of being drowned in the deep belly of darkness. Unable to open my mouth with saliva acting adhesively, sealing off the lips due to chillness, i let out a spurt of fart, making sure I was awake and alive. And yes, besides the sudden fear that my boxers just ripped apart, in the whole all was just fine.I was awake after I wrought all night with unflagging thoughts. I found myself yet again dragging myself up the path I dreaded most, the path filled with disloyalty, fake acts and insensitiveness. Why all of a sudden?? I happened to know of an event that made me realise that i was rebuffed from a circle; a circle of friends which I had been formerly associated with. No one made an avowal of any sort over this occurrence, but I just felt it so; I may be wrong. Yet, I was in a state indeed. I never understood the raison d'être to why I was under no circumstances able to find the sense of belonging to a certain assemblage of people, whom I consider to be of my league. This particular pursue has been a persistence I’ve carried since a couple of years ago.
Always yearning for a perfect fit like a piece of a jigsaw to a set, I searched and hoped; for a group of people who would accept me for who and what I am, not expecting something in return. In this exempted period of time of my angst, I begun realising; one does not get unerringly what we hanker for, but God willing, something of close propinquity to. I sanguinely accept that I may have found it in the course of time, this point in time. During this period of instance (gloomy times), I found out the veracity in friendship, care and love from a group of my much cherished circle of friends, that I may have found what I have hankered for thus far. The crème de la crème of the entire conciliating period transpired when I read Yoges’ “confessionz-of-the-truth”. Her blog! The choice of words she chose to depict the experience and personality she discerned during our meet up! I was flattered, those where the words I need to hear that mollified my muffled ears. It meant so much! This was when I decided, I may have FOUND it, finally!! I would be deemed an ingrate if I failed to consider as well other friends, who helped me overcome this grieve. Special Thanks to Kannan and Bala. My Besties!!
for giving me Faith
for giving me Hope
for giving me Care
for giving me Love
for giving me Happiness
for giving me F.R.I.E.N.D.S
Good night, I’m going back to slumber… serenely…
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Reminiscing the Year Past- To Amity!!
It is common that people start reminiscing about the year as New Year approaches, I am no poles apart. As I’ve not been blogging for awhile now, I suppose it is judicious I do so, now.Well, here goes...
The year 2008 started on the customary time at the stroke of midnight, January the first. My family and I, after a stopover at the temple to offer gratitude for another year past and welcoming a new one. Things were pretty much the same for the years past on how we welcome the year, together as a family (something I apprehend now, to be of great significance).
As for the rest of the year, many events took place in my life. I was still in college, having another year to complete.
The start of school Wasn’t much of a highlight... Expecting another YEARs worth of classes and exams wasn’t all that exhilarating. We were authoritatively seniors, to a bunch of newbie joining the Jan intake, which was kinda alright. A whole Month past on with no notice. It was already February before i cud even spell the word “jiffy”. Dayyumnn!! I was already on the verge of going into depression for continuous studying and sitting through examinations, yes! examinationsSS in just a month. I always wondered what were the people around me made of, all they did was study n anything but! Seriously, being in a scholarship class is not always the best that cud happen.
I wanted to burst out, running and flapping my hands high up in the air screaming profanities. Around that time, i wanted to explore, indulge in activities out of the routine, make new friends.. speaking of which, that was about the time, I turned to social networking sites. I acquainted with Tharma. We became friends so arbitrarily like I have never done before, not meaning to carp (made loads others the same way in months to come). He was the first person I ever got acquainted to a good friend level through social networking sites. It was fun. I liked it.
Another “jiffy” and it was now April, this meant only One thing... ADVANCE SUBSIDIARY!!! The first of two sets of major examination of the Advance Level course. Panic percolated in me! Slogged like mad and time flew even faster, before I knew it, it was May and exams started, it was great, i was confident of its colours flying... like a whole load of mass mitigated of my shoulders. I felt free again, not for long though, but I treasured those times profoundly, that certainly meant late night movies, and 24/7 online... oh yes I did..
During these hours that I made more acquaintances... notably, Kannan and Visha. Kannan and I became instant buddies, everything seemed right, better, alleviated my displeasure with my student life and overall. The late night chats, daily accounts sharing, jokes and giggles. June passed by then.
July materialize with another “jiffy”. I made loads more other friends from Singapore. Yoges, Theba, Priya and few others. I was flattered! All of whom became some of my close chums in time. Tharma left to Indon for studies in August, i managed to meet him in person just the day before he left on the 7th. It was an adventure itself getting to his place(will brief thru sum other time). I was soon introduced to Bala, the guy who appeared to live right above my gran’s apartment, in which I was an occupant for a year and a half, the period of my course. Pretty amusing to think of it now, I never met him anywhere before knowing him through Kannan who lived Miles away in Singapore! And how we have all become closest of friends. I suppose these are the events that bring about the term providence and how it takes place.
September, the most favourite month of the year... why? Yes, my birthday! It was the best i had in years, i quote myself “That contentment at that time I would reckon to have surpassed any of it I had of its kind... This year’s birthday was rather more out of the ordinary... I had people whom i never knew just the last birthday, pushing the boat out it with me this year... time really travels swift n changes a great deal... it made me feel loved and cared for, something which I hankered for, for ever and a day...”. I was euphorically elated .
After birthday celebrations, it was time 2 hit the books once again, A2 examinations was up next. It was a juncture I’ve been waiting for a long time, finishing this exam would mean graduating Pre-U. I couldn’t wait. Very soon, I found myself sitting in d cold, eerie exam hall, letting out a sigh and felt as if my body has been released after being tightly squeezed through a garden hose, I could Breath again!! I was utterly Relieved!!
After a year and a half, I was free from books! I wanted to go for a Holiday! I trip somewhere Far n have Fun! Thus, it was duly planned that i visited Singapore! It would be my first trip ALONE to another country! There i would meet my cherished Singaporean chums. We all met, had loads of fun, with a little discontent here and there. I don’t regret it much though; it acted as an adhesive, strengthening the bonds we had amongst us. Now it is the year end... in a day, it will be a NEW year, and I have come to realise, that most of this year involved studies, exams and the preeminent of ALL proceedings, the part of the pack where I made many new friends. Wonderful ones too!! Not only did I make new friends, I also apprehended and appreciated the ones I had. To my closest of friends, I Thank You loads for making my year much remarkable. I hereby declare, the year 2008 as Amity Year! Cheers to it!!
Sunday, November 23, 2008
The Link between Man & GOD???
Professor : You are a Christian, aren't you, son ?Student : Yes, sir. Professor : So, you Believe in GOD ?
Student : Absolutely, sir.
Professor : Is GOD Good ?
Student : Sure.
Professor : Is GOD ALL - POWERFUL ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : My Brother died of Cancer even though he Prayed to GOD to Heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But GOD didn't. How is this GOD good then? Hmm? (Student was silent )
Professor : You can't answer, can you ? Let's start again, Young Fella. Is GOD Good?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Is Satan good ?
Student : No.
Professor : Where does Satan come from ?
Student : From . . . GOD . . .
Professor : That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this World?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Evil is everywhere, isn't it ? And GOD did make everything. Correct?
Student : Yes.
Professor : So who created evil ? (Student did not answer)
Professor : Is there Sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the World, don't they?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So, who Created them ? (Student had no answer)
Professor : Science says you have 5 Senses you use to Identify and Observe
the World around you. Tell me, son . . . Have you ever Seen GOD?
Student : No, sir.
Professor : Tell us if you have ever Heard your GOD?
Student : No , sir.
Professor : Have you ever Felt your GOD, Tasted your GOD, Smelt your GOD? Have you ever had any Sensory Perception of GOD for that matter?
Student : No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Professor : Yet you still Believe in HIM?
Student : Yes.
Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student : Nothing. I only have my Faith.
Professor : Yes,Faith. And that is the Problem Science has.
Student : Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?
Professor : Yes.
Student : And is there such a thing as Cold?
Professor : Yes.
Student : No, sir. There isn't. (The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events )
Student : Sir, you can have Lots of Heat, even More Heat, Superheat, Mega Heat, White Heat, a Little Heat or No Heat. But we don't have anything called Cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is No Heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as Cold. Cold is only a Word we use to describe the Absence of Heat. We cannot Measure Cold. Heat is Energy. Cold is Not the Opposite of Heat, sir, just the Absence of it. (There was Pin-Drop Silence in the Lecture Theatre )
Student : What about Darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as Darkness?
Professor : Yes. What is Night if there isn't Darkness?
Student : You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the Absence of Something You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light . . . But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and its called Darkness, isn't it? In reality, Darkness isn't. If it is, were you would be able to make Darkness Darker, wouldn't you?
Professor : So what is the point you are making, Young Man ?
Student : Sir, my point is your Philosophical Premise is flawed.
Professor : Flawed ? Can you explain how?
Student : Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality. You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a Good GOD and a Bad GOD. You are viewing the Concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can't even explain a Thought. It uses Electricity and Magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view Death as the Opposite of Life is to be ignorant of the fact that Death cannot exist as a Substantive Thing. Death is Not the Opposite of Life: just the Absence of it Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your Students that they evolved from a Monkey?
Professor : If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes, of
course, I do.
Student : Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir? (The Professor shook his head with a Smile, beginning to realize where the Argument was going )
Student : Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and Cannot even prove that this Process is an On-Going Endeavor, Are you not teaching your Opinion, sir? Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher? (The Class was in Uproar )
Student : Is there anyone in the Class who has ever seen the Professor's Brain? (The Class broke out into Laughter )
Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's Brain, Felt it, touched or Smelt it? . . No one appears to have done so. So, according to the Established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that You have No Brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then Trust your Lectures, sir? (The Room was Silent. The Professor stared at the Student, his face unfathomable)
Professor : I guess you'll have to take them on Faith, son.
Student : That is it sir . . . Exactly ! The Link between Man & GOD is FAITH. That is all that Keeps Things Alive and Moving.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Needing a "Persona" Makeover!
The alarm on my phone rang with an Indian melody, a tune which I considered to be soothing... The more reason for me to fall back asleep, well, I arouse, having hardly any sleep the night, to THE day. My final day of exams, (i.e. final day of my college life...)Almost all my friends knew this due to my disproportionate, should I say…advertisement? The verity was all over the place where my presence were noted, Facebook, MSN and what not, I had countdowns set to change every second, to much of the populace awe. :P In point of fact, I was just too excited about it, I have had much of a comatose and basically, a lifeless life. It was as if I’ve been trapped in a time capsule which sucked all the vim and vigor of a young adolescent… all I had for more than a year was tests and lectures, the number of times I went out with friends for a movies needed less than a hand to be counted, yes, that was how pathetic it was. Well, being in a scholarship class meant, one would have to give up their lives to studies and nothing but. Nevertheless, it is no longer the same…or so I think…
The day and time that I have been waiting for, for more than a year had finally materialized. I literally SOLED (Sigh-out-loud), as I shaded in the final answer on the OMR sheet. The head-Invigilator looked and smiled as I wilted myself on the chair and beamed widely. That was it, the end of my Pre-U course, on the record. Having said that, the ecstatic feeling of having accomplished something -the time to run wild-, died-out almost instantly. My friend Thongs and I looked at each other and went, “now what?” exactly!! What do we do, now that we’re done with it?? Pretty much nothing…
The next hour, I found myself, travelling alone in the teeming train at peak hour, back home. Is this what life is like? Or is it just me? I couldn’t figure… too much of thinking made me tetchy and things which irked me normally took an extra spice to it and it was kinda grievous. Even the way I spoke n treated my friends went acerbic. Gosh, I’m fed up, I’ve made a decision, I have to be less sympathetic, less sappy, less schmaltzy and turn stone-hearted, that was the possible reason why I was vexed more often than not. Hopefully, things will change hereafter.
Monday, October 13, 2008
~CoLoUrS of My LiFe~
Monday, October 6, 2008
HaPpY BirthDAY THEBA!!
Birthdays come and go each year,
Today is yours, so don’t you fear.
Conversations fill the air,
We have joined you since we care.
Funny jokes and laughs out loud,
We will always be your crowd.
Many friends you haven’t seen,
How long has it really been?
We shall dance all through the night,
Until our spirits are truly light.
Celebrate our dearest friend,
A birthday poem, we wish to send.
Luv n Hugz, from, Kabin, Kannan, Yoges and Bala